Psalm 9: 9-10(KJV 1900)
9 The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed, A refuge in times of trouble.
10 And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: For thou, Lord, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.
It was a cold December day in Kokomo, Indiana. My wife, Kimberly, and I were waiting for the nurse to escort me to the surgical suite. We were relatively calm, knowing that the procedure was very simple and it would take a short time. The nurse ran through the normal check list…do you have any allergies? Did you have anything
to eat within the last 8 hours? She took my temp, pulse, and blood pressure. Finishing up she told us that the surgical suite nurse would bring me back to the suite in a few minutes. I kissed my wife and told her that I love her and I’d see her soon. The nurse
whisked me back to a cold and well lit surgical suite. The surgical suite team guided me off the gurney and onto the narrow surgical table. The anesthesiologist kindly told me that he was going to administer the anesthesia. Off I went…sound asleep. The
desire to wake up and here the “all clear” was rolling through the mind. I woke up in the recovery room with my wife sobbing and the Dr. looking very somber. I asked what was wrong. My wife gently broke the news to me…you have cancer. We all go into situations, one time or another, where we are uncomfortable with what we must undergo. The thought of having cancer…never crossed my mind.
I’d like to be very transparent with you. I had no calmness or peace sweep over me. I was terrified. I could only think of all the time I spent on myself and how little time I gave to the Lord. Is this how I’m going to out? In shock, I dressed and my loving
wife drove me home.
A choice had to be made…draw closer to the Lord and seek him…or…fall into a deep depression. The latter part of Psalm 9:10 says the Lord hasn’t forsaken those that seek him. The work “seek” isn’t a casual action. Seek, in this context, is to seek
with care. The time had come to carefully seek the Lord, for I anticipated I’d meet him sooner that I had thought. Life is strange. We go through life talking about our
love for the Lord and how we long to be with him. I was, like so many…if you are honest to admit it…wanted to be with the Lord forever…just don’t take me today. The gentle King…had awakened me from slumber. The cancer diagnosis had really
It’s a great blessing to be awakened. The Bible says..in Romans 13:11…And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed. I spent much of my life sleeping. The Lord
had gotten my attention and needless to say, I was awake! The petty things that I had held onto for so long, we’re now so trivial. Past hurts, that I had harbored, were insignificant. Grudges, jealousies, bitterness, and all other sins and weights, were
chaff blowing through the windswept field. All I could think of, I’m about to meet the Lord. How could I expect him to say, “Well done”. My prayers became very selfish. I prayed for healing and reached out to others to do the same. The Lord convicted me
of my prayers. He directed me to stop praying for myself and to begin praying for others. The time had come for me to hold onto Psalm 23. The good Shepherd would guide me through and he will do the same for you!
EXPECT MORE QUESTIONS
• WHAT LIFE EVENT HAS THE LORD BROUGHT YOU TO, IN ORDER TO CAUSE AN AWAKENING IN YOUR SOUL?
• KNOWING THAT JESUS IS THE GOOD SHEPHERD, HOW ARE YOU TRUSTING HIM TO SEE YOU THROUGH TIMES THAT APPEAR TO BE TROUBLING?
• COULD IT BE THE TROUBLING TIME YOU’RE EXPERIENCING IS COMING DIRECTLY FROM THE LORD?
• CAN YOU FEEL HIM TRYING TO AWAKEN YOU TO GREAT THINGS? EXPECT MORE PRAYER
Dear lord, give me a heart and mind that desires to carefully seek thee. I can be assured that you will never forsake me, if I will seek you with the utmost care. Please guide me each day so I can walk in your power..live in your presence…and share your love with all I meet. Help me Lord… to Expect More. In Jesus Name…!
– Bro. Kevin Hickey